In just two more days, the younger of my daughters is going to be 19 years old...

Nineteen years y'all and I SWEAR I can barely count (on both hands) the amount of times I have received any financial support from her father.

"It's my fault" though ---> at least that's what he ALWAYS told me...

Every chance that man got (and believe you me, there were PLENTY) he made sure to remind me that he never wanted me to bring her into the world in the first place so "I brought this on myself".

Though he never came out and said it, I knew he resented us both...

After all according to him, I was the reason his daughters mother (who apparently, he was seeing the same time he was seeing me) had left him because she found out about us and my making the decision to keep my daughter killed any chances the two of them had of "working things out".

It took me a long time to get over that ---> Way too long as a matter of fact.

STILL, I tried everything I could PLUS SOME to allow him to be in his daughters life but...we all know how the saying goes ---> "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink".

Even AFTER he refused to come see my daughter all those years, he refused for me to bring her to his home, he refused to tell his mother about her and basically refused to help me out in any way at all, I STILL welcomed him into my daughters life when he was ready to be there.

She was 10 (maybe 11) at the time so you better believe everybody and their mama thought I was a damn fool for doing it but it didn't matter to me...

My daughter was super excited about daddy being around, loved spending time with him and getting to know her grandma and other family members on his side but it didn't take long for him to prove he couldn't even do THAT right.

Every other weekend I allowed my daughter to spend with her dad, she came home with different stories about how he never spent time with her alone. How he always included his first daughter in EVERYTHING and made it obvious to her that he cared more for her half sister than he did her.

As much as it hurt me to acknowledge it, I always tried to convince my daughter otherwise making one excuse after the next for his behavior.

I still stuck it out (forcing her to stick it out too) but my daughter and her dad NEVER had that closeness that he has with his firstborn.

Today, my daughter and her dad barely speak. In fact, if he doesn't pick up a phone to call her they don't talk for months at a time but you know what ---> She's completely fine with that and so am I.

He and I had a heated conversation (a few days ago) in which he was STILL playing the blame game and I told him in so many choice words that it's not my fault our daughter doesn't give a damn anymore.

He can deny it all he wants...He's simply reaping all he's sowed.